Late night thoughts

It has been almost a year now. Still here I am stuck in time. It has been almost a year now. My body seems to move forward with my brain left in the past. It's almost 2 am now and I am having a cup of tea in bed listening to music which is what my life feels like. I wonder, whoever is reading this blog if there would still be someone doing it. How's it going mate? What's your cup of tea? Let me share you this, there has been moments where I sit in bed, with my life in front of me yet I don't even know what to do with it. You know what I did? I took a walk one chilly night to somewhere I haven't been at all. It scared the shit out of me thinking I might get mugged, I might get stabbed or worst I might get killed. My thoughts scared me yet my heart felt I needed that moment. Walking so slowly in the dim street lights, thinking, thinking, hoping, hoping, hurting, hurting. I feel silly now, still awake at this time knowing I need to go to school tomorrow morning. I'm sorry to whoever is reading as I reckon I am just wasting your time, like big time lol. I just feel like writing tonight. I better get going now as my bed awaits for my slumber. When will someone ever fill the largest gap left inside me.

Now playing: The Scientist by Coldplay (loving this moment now)

Before it sinks in

It's almost 2 am now and I couldn't sleep. I guess sleeping after a tiring shift really charges me up and a dose of caffeine really isn't helping but thank God for it coz my headache is gone. I came across this song a few days back and thought I'd share this here in my newly refurbished blog. haha

This is a song by Moira Dela Torre called, Before it sinks in.

Suspended in the air

I hear myself breathing

Hanging by a thread

My heart is barely beating

I haven't fallen yet

But I feel it coming

Tell me would it be too much to ask

If you break it to me gently

And I'm waking the next day

Without you beside me

And you hold on to the day

Tomorrow will just be a memory

That I would look back at all of this

And wonder why I stayed in here

Just to watch you disappear

So I breathe and let you go

How do I breathe and let you go?

Before it's too late

I'll take a step away

I know one word would make me go

Rushing back to you

So I'll just shut my eyes

Forget that you were mine

How do you go from making one your home

And then just letting it all go

Let me take it in

Before it sinks in

Far beyond my reach

Is the future you promised

Know what I never even had

I have every reason to miss

And I down away

I can't find the strength to let you go

When the only love I've come to know

Packed his bags and left me alone

You found another home

So before it's too late

I'll take a step away

I know one word would make me go

Rushing back to you

That I'll just shut my eyes

Forget that you were mine

How do you go from making one your home

And then just letting it all go

Let me take it in

Before it sinks in

Before it's too late

I'll take a step away

I know one word would make me go

Rushing back to you

I'll just shut my eyes

Forget that you were mine

How do you go from making one your home

And then just letting it all go

Let me take it in

Before it sinks in

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