“You have no idea how much l like you. How much you make me smile, how much l love talking to you, or how much l wish you were here.”

“Sometimes you just have to accept that some people can only be in your heart, not in your life.” 

#hugot

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i have been all over this over and over again.. why am i scared to lose you? why do i keep being scared when there's nothing for me to lose because i dont have you. My feelings grew everyday since i met you but i can't have this feelings. i need to keep myself within me.i have to be strong..

Yellow Jersey

It was indeed something that i can't forget. you inspired me of who i am. you gave me inspiration which i longed looking. you gave new meaning to what the word inspiration means. you gave new meaning to my flaws. you made me embrace my flaws. you made me love myself again. i guess i am picking myself one by one because of you. you were my prayers that i see you in school. i don't even care if you don't see me because by just seeing you, it makes my day bright. though i am hoping to see those smiles for me. you were the reason i keep on waiting on instagram for you to comment back. i can't feel this way. i can't. what's in to you that draws me towards you? i am afraid. i can't feel this way. i want to break free from this feelings. what should i do? you made me laugh, you made me smile, you brighten up my night with such cuteness. i am afraid yellow jersey. i can't have feelings because of your double chin. what do i do? i am in need of music right now to comfort me in my slumber..

blue barong

not much to ask but too much to say. i don't know anything about you as well as you don't know anything about me. heard a few notes about you but who could tell? i shouldn't feel this. no this is not to happen. what do i do now? i saw you. standing behind someone i knew. i saw you. sitting on the floor with your yellowish colorful shirt. i saw you. sitting amongst the crowd. i saw you. sitting on the sides. i saw you lying on bed. i saw you. you smiled. i saw you. walking past by me. i saw you. you didn't see me. i saw you. you didn't recognize me. i saw you. you were adorable. i saw you. but i didn't exist. i had fun, danced and laughed myself out  but i kept watching you. you left. my efforts were nothing. i kept looking at you. you danced with me but everyone's with us. i kept looking at you every morning, when we eat, when i talk, when i laugh. everything was just you. NO, i shouldn't feel this. I said to myself that i have to make a move, i created the bonfire and letters so i could give you something. and happily i did. we circled around it, i kept looking at you. i want to hug you but i couldn't. i want to hold you but i woudn't. finally you stood by my side. it felt like as if i am standing with someone who would become my weakness. you talked, you uttered words. i was left in awe. you were amazing. you were adorable. as we circled the fire, i gave the note and wanted to hug you, but who i am to hug you? you don't even know me and like me but kept looking at you because the sight of you fueled my energy to the maximum level! i looked for you where you've slept but i couldn't. i was sad. why did i became sad? this isn't what i should feel. i walked outside the door and you passed infront of me, i wanted to shout for your name, i couldn't i'm too coward. when we are about to part ways, i asked myself, would i see you again? i'm afraid i'll not be able to see you. but i did not mind it. here comes what i hate most. you talked to me it felt good to me. such an amazing act made my day. even though the topic was irrelevant but still i was so happy.. i kept myself distant, i wanted to know you but i am afraid. i waited for you to look for me on social media. you didn't. i was devastated. i accidentally liked a photo. it was you and everything went on. i had to endure no lunch just to have a load for internet to reply with the comments, that made me happy. every morning i got out of bed excited to see you. i hurried back at the dorm expecting a reply from you. until you added me in facebook. it made my night. it really did.  do i have to lose you too? there's nothing to lose Dylan. nothing to lose. you can't worry about this one 😔

PUSO O UTAK?

di ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula. saan nga ba ako dapat magsimula? nagmahal ako, oo nagmahal akong totoo. ginamit ko ang puso ko. buong puso ko ngunit sa huli nasaktan akong lubos. nagmahal ako, ginamit ko ang utak ko, nakasakit lamang. san nga ba ako dpat lumugar? sa masasaktan ako o dun sa makakasakit ako? mahirap mang isipin, pero mas mahirap mamili. gusto kong magmahal. sino ba naman ang ayaw mag mahal? ngunit bakit ganito? sa tuwing nagmamahal ako, ako yung laging tanga at naiiwan. bat sa tuwing ako yung nagmamahal ako yung talo? bat ako ang naiiwan? siguro ganito lang tlaga may mga bagay na sadyang di magiging atin. mga taong di magiging atin. PUSO, magmamahal ako gamit ang aking puso pero ayaw ng UTAK ko. bat ganun? di ba sila pwedeng magkasundo? bat ganito, bat unti unti akong nahuhulog? ayaw ko ng ganito. ayaw kong masaktan ayaw na ayaw ko. takot ako, takot na takot ako ngayon. kso wala eh. umaasa ako. tanga ulit? sorry ah, ikaw ba? puso o utak?